Posts Tagged ‘personal’

Feeling Overwhelmed

feeling overwhelmed

I’m sure it’s not just me who gets the feeling of being overwhelmed.

Being at an event where there are so many people to talk to and so much to do can be extremely overwhelming. You just don’t know where to look half the time, but there’s always that feeling afterwards that you’ve overcome whatever feelings you have and almost satisfaction that you’ve done it.

On the other hand, there’s the situation of taking on so much and being so busy doing everything you possibly can. That can also be so overwhelming but in a good way. I remember I used to sit around doing practically nothing before blogging and now with organising events too, all my spare time awake goes into that and blogging. That in itself can be completely overwhelming but I love having small side projects that go with blogging.

It opens up a whole number of possibilities and exciting opportunities.

While being and feeling completely overwhelmed is only a small factor, the feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment completely outweighs any negative feelings.

Yesterday I shared a post with you on How I Lost 1 Stone in 1 Month and ran my personal best mile last week, for me this was a completely overwhelming feeling. I’ve lost weight, something I’ve battled with for years, an addiction to food that I simply didn’t know how to deal with and I’m so proud of myself that when I think about it, I cannot believe it and I get so overwhelmed that I could cry. Then I think that I can do this, I can really do this, I can lose weight and be happier and find pretty dresses that I can wear without feeling ridiculously self conscious. Already I’ve bought jeans a size smaller and I have a new favourite outfit, that actually looks good! It’s overwhelming but also an amazing achievement when I thought it was just a downwards spiral, turns out it can go up too!

It actually makes me so excited for the future, I don’t think I could ask for anything more right now!

newendnote

Coping | Dealing with Anxiety

adelesjourney1

I’ve been dealing with anxiety for over 6 years now. Yeah, 6 years, a long time right! It’s been on hell of a journey and it’s likely to go on for a while. It’ll be one of those things that will be buried and every now and again it will surface its ugly head.

It started out with panic attacks when I war 15, I was young and honestly had no idea what was going on. I found it difficult to even sit in an assembly for 20 minutes and it was even worse trying to sit through lessons and knowing I couldn’t leave. I had no escape route.

It felt like it was taking over my lie and I was a nervous wreck. It got to the point where I would get panic attacks at the thought of even going to school. I had absolutely no idea how to deal with it.

Only in the past couple of years has it started to ease off. Basically since I started taking antidepressants. It’s made such a huge difference but in no way am I saying that this is a solution to my problems because it absolutely isn’t. This is a temporary fix while I deal with the real issues then I will gradually take myself off of it.

University wasn’t any easier, the panic attacks eased and depressions et in, so I seemed the Doctors help and started counselling. But that’s a whole other story.

If you’ve ever had a panic attack you can sympathise. If you haven’t, you are lucky, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. It’s not a pleasant thing to go through.

end note

Adele’s Journey #3 | Being Self Conscious

adelesjourney1

Can you believe it’s March already? I certainly can’t. Unfortunately, any weight I lost, I’ve put back on again by putting myself under a lot of stress.

Therefore, I’m writing myself a list of rules to go by. I can’t carry on the way I a, and even though I’m fitting into size 18’s at work, I still dread the thought of having to try clothes on.

How can anyone even be happy like this?

I’m going to Centerparcs in June with @LDNmeetup for #bloggersinvadecenterparcs. Now anyone that knows me will know how much I love Centerparcs. But the last thing I want to do is go along and be so self conscious of the way I look and not take part in things like swimming which would quite frankly ruin the event and weekend for me.

I’m also going to a festival with my family and friends and I want to be able to buy new clothes and look and feel good!

Plus every time I write posts like this I’m on the verge of crying. I want to write the positive posts where I’ve lost weight and I’m happy!

march

So I’m going to do that for me! I’m well aware I make excuses and I’m yet to lost weight but I hope that it doesn’t stop you reading. I will get there and your support is invaluable!

end note

R is for… Retail


There’s a little giggle for you, each and every one of those is true!

A lot of people think that working in retail is a piece of cake, literally go away! You have no idea what you’re talking about…
Anyway…you will be aware that I work in a clothing shop which I love. Over the next month or so my posts will probably be a bit slower, although I’m trying to keep up!

Have you ever worked in retail? What did you think?

1 2